Taken straight from police records, here is the suicide note of Kurt Cobain.
To Boddah
     Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an
  emasculated, infantile complaind. This note should be pretty easy to understand. All the warnings
 from the Punk Rock 101 Courses over the years, it's my first introduction to the, shall we say ethics
  involvedwith independence and the embracement of your community has been proven to be very
  true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to, as well as creating music, along with really writing
 something for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things, for example when
 we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins. It doesn't affect me in
  the way which it did for Freddie Mercury, whoseemed to love and relish the love and admiration
  from the crowd, which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any of
 you. It simply isn't fair to you, or to me. The worst crime can think of would be to pull people off by
   faking it, pretending as if I'm having one 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as though I should have a
 punch-in time clock before I walk out on-stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate
   it, and I do, God believe me, I do, but it's not enough. I appreciate the fact that I, and we, have
 affected, and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of the narcisists who only appreciate things
      when they're alone. I'm too sensitive, I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the
 enthusiasm.But, what's sad is our child. On our last three tours, I've had a much betterappreciation
    of all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music. But I still can't get out the
 frustration, the guilt, and the sympathy I have for everybody. There is good in all of us, and I simply
    love people too much. So much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little sensitive
 unappreciative pisces Jesus man! why don't you just enjoy it? I dont know! I have a of a wide who
 sweats ambition and empathy, and a daughter who reminds me to much of what I use to be. full of
 love and joy, every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that
 terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I cant stand the thought of Frances becoming
 the miserable self destructive, deathrocker she become. I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful,
 but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems
 so easy for people to get along and have empathy. Empathy only because I love and feel for people
   too much I guess. Thank you from the pit of my burning nauseas stomach for your letters and
 concern during the last years. I'm too much of a neurotic moody person and I don't have the passion
 anymore, so remember, it's better to burn out, than fade away. Peace, love, empathy, Kurt Cobain.
 
 
 

   Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar. Please keep going Courtney for Frances for her life
          which will be so much happier without me. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU!